Last Resort~

PFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFT!!!!!
ASDFGHJKLJWIEFDKDNF'@##%$^&$##BFIFGKDAFJKLM!!!
I'm so stressed!!!! So I'm just gonna half-@$$ it.

What I Learned:

   Audio in Aiff form, editing in Final cut, &... something... er, Different angles in a project.

What I Want to Learn in The future:

   How to deal with friggen stress because my mental/emotional breakdowns are starting to become a nuisance. Seriously, I don't have time for my emotional baggage right now. & I guess I want to get used to Final Cut Pro bit more.

Something That Made Me Happy This Week:
   I'll get back to you on that.
*EDIT* I got a lollipop... I -bleep-ing love these things... =////=

Something That Frustrated Me This Week:

   Everything. Every. Fricken. Thing. This week was crap. My whole family was stressed out. I got nothing accomplished. I'm behind in regular school. I have gym today. The house is a mess. I have no money to buy the crap I want, The animals are always pissing me off. I ate my weight in pudding yesterday when I got home. I'm glad I have a fast metabolism so I can eat whatever the frick I want 'cause if I didn't I would be fat as frick. Like, people in the background of Super-Size Me fat.

     It's freezing cold when I wake up, I still can't sleep & when I took stuff to help me sleep yesterday it made me all loopy today. So then I missed the bus, So I asked the school people to call it back, so I waited outside in the wind for 15 minutes, but apparently there was a misunderstanding & the bus never came, so then I had wait so more, & I was still all loopy, & then a short bus came to my rescue (At least the man driving was nice & quiet, didn't try to make small talk (I hate small talk) & put the radio on for me.) & then I came in late, & I got to work & now all of my projects are rushed & they're crap & I refuse to do them over 'cause I just don't have the fricken time. IF I HAD THE TIME I WOULD. I COMPLETELY WOULD, BUT I DON'T SO I CAN'T. PFFFFFFFFFFT!!!

*sigh* Pffffttttt.....

Sweet S. I'm gonna get an ulcer from all of this. 

You know I don't get a lunch? My body has physically adapted to not me hungry anymore. I have no  energy, I have low blood sugar & if I would get just a g*d-Damned Sammich I'd be happy. BUT NO! NO SAMMICH FOR ME. I GO HUNGRY & TURN INTO MISS. CRAZY McLOONEY!! >_>

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& as for the two things I have to post that related to Video Production... I don't have Sh*t. So I'm sorry. I got nothing. Moving on....

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....I'm not feeling well. Thank g*d it's Friday... I would jump off a bridge if it wasn't... well, actually I don't even know where the closest bridge is, I would have to jump into the creek in my back yard, but that would be stupid & refuse to be known as the girl who went crazy & drowned in her backyard... It's dark humor, I'm being sarcastic, so laugh uneasily, people. I'm not being serious... >_>;

   I need some tea or something... I'm gonna sulk through the day, go home & eat the rest of the ice cream in the fridge.

Sincerely yours, Miss Crazy McLooney. <3

BwaHahahaha-ha... No Sleep makes me go Crazy~

I was EXHAUSTED yesterday... HOW IS IT THAT I DIDN'T GET ANY SLEEP?!?!?!?!
Curse you, insomnia!!!! *Shakes fist at the sky* orz....

At least I did All of my homework. To be honest, I've been kinda blowing it off for video production...
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Yeah, that didn't turn out well... Oh well, I'll just try harder. orz...

I'm trying real harder to think what to type about but nothing comes to mind. I'm soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo tired... T^T
Pffffft..... I gotta check my gmail calendar be back in a sec.
1.2478649 seconds later~ ('Cause a Mac is super fast like that)
I have to work on my sound... scavenger... hunt... thingy. I got assigned with fire & a buzzing... bug, >_>
Pfffft... How the -bleep- do I make a buzzing bug noise?! Oh well, at least starting a fire & then recording it should be easy...
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That last part sounded less psychotic in my head. >_> orz

Well, I guess I'll write more later... buh bye *waves good bye*

This Blog is the Bane of my Existence.

I'm just saying.

Today... was wasted, yeah, I'm gonna go with wasted.
I planned to do like, 60 different things ...& I didn't do any of them.
See, it all stated yesterday... *flashback music*

I got to see Paranormal Activity 2 yesterday. (Which I liked, though it didn't really scare me. It had a few "pop-ups" but that's about it. I don't seem to get scared by horror movies anymore.) Though I had to see it with my sister & her friends.
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I hate them. I really, really do.
Anyways, we got back from the movie, & one of them decided to sleep over for the night. I'm just gonna say it, she was a snob. Pfffft...

They woke me up like 6 different times, & I am NOT A MORNING PERSON!!! How many times do I have to say this?!?! PFFFFFFFFT....
Yeah, so I stayed in my room for most of the day. Better to avoid problems then to knowingly start them, right? I'll admit I wasn't exactly the nicest person towards her... but I was deeply offended, my sister is allowed to have her friends over because "she lives here too" *cough*Only-4-days-out-of-the-month*cough* But, all I'm saying is that when I get my own place she better not expect to be able to do that with me. It'll be my house, my home, so... yeah. Respect is what I'm going for in this rant but it seems that I lost my train of thought. Oh well....

I really got nothing else to talk about...
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Good bye.

Nothing Much.

Well, It's just the end of the day, & I have a few minutes to kill, so I might as well update.
Teh teacher was out today, so we just worked on video/audio editing.

Might I say, I FRICKEN LOVE FINAL CUT PRO!!!!! <3

I'm used to Adobe video editor, but they were similar & I'm getting used to Final Cut pretty quickly. I'm excited for the Sea World clip, project. I love editing so long as I have clips & audio to edit to... That's what I'm best at, so, yay!!!!!! I won't want to go back to school, I'll want to stay all day & work on it... I would to... I megaloath regular school >_<;

I'm so tired right now... yesterday was busy as heck, Mary dragged me to her drama club- thingy... Then I had to walk home & clean up the house 'cause Mariah wanted to come over. We chatted the whole time & watched some tv. Nothing much. I didn't get to eat dinner until 9:30-ish, but since I ate so late I got crazy dreams... like... REALLY 'effed up dreams... I plan to forget them as soon as possible... >_>

Well, I'm off to do... something....

I DON'T WANNA GO BACK TO REGULAR SCHOOL!!!!

I have to run the mile today D': I HATE IT! I hate it, I hate it, I hate it, I hate it, I hate it, I hate it, I hate it, I hate it, I hate it, I hate it, I hate it, I hate it, I hate it, I hate it, I hate it, I hate it, I hate it, I hate it, I hate it, I hate it, I hate it, I hate it, I hate it, I hate it, I hate it, I hate it, I hate it, I hate it, I hate it, I hate it, I hate it, I hate it, I hate it, I hate it, I hate it, I hate it, I hate it, I hate it, I hate it, I hate it, I hate it, I hate it, I hate it, I hate it, I hate it... I HATE IT!!!!!

D'is Club is Closed... Forever D:

I'm startin to write just random titles now.... ahahahaha....

I dunno, Really...

Well I had a fun weekend. Dad helped with the chores... for once. Ahahaha, nah, I tease. But seriously, I was about to pull my hair out with the amount of work I had to get done last weekend. & I didn't do any of it. Pffffffft.... This is why I get stressed >_>

Anyways, I went to my school's homecoming, I got all dressed up & went with my friend, Mary. ^_^ They didn't play that good of music, just stuff on the radio, but it's better then nothin' right? We (me & Mary, that is) played cards for the heck of it, War & Rummy, & I won both times. I AM TEH QUEEN OF CARDS! AHAHAHAHAHA!!! ... er, well, not really. Whatever...

Well, I seriously have nothing else to talk about. I'm gonna... do something. *Looks around like an airhead.*

Crazy Beat~

I really don't have much to write about. 

I finished a little bit early in class today, so I'm thinking about the documentary project Imma have to do. o3o
I like to watch documentaries, so I somewhat have an idea on what to do. I'm kinda planning it out in my head. Well, I kinda have an idea. Dad said I should do a documentary about documentaries. Pffffft-Ha. Silly. 
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I'll use that as a back up. Ha.

I just wanna go home & draw right now... I miss my tablet ;^;

Time to get Serious. *Serious face*

Ok, Grades close next week... I have to really put some (more) effort into everything. I'm trying, I really am, I'm just not keeping up... I can do it though... possibly... maybe... er, hopefully.
*shrugs*
I'm really not having a great day, but curse my optimism, I can't really get too down. I can run around trying to do everything until I collapse, but that's about it, ahahahahaha...

I'm a little bummed out, we had a pep rally today, but I really can't go... I wanted to sit by my friend, Mary, I never see her anymore 'cause we don't have any classes together *sad face*
But she decided to take me to the homecoming dance. I'll be nice to go with someone who won't ditch me after 5 minutes. I'll make it up to her later. I'll bring tea or something... ('cause we're both British like that, ahahaha) Maybe I'll draw a pic, I'm pretty decent with a tablet now. I'm getting better. :D

I have so much going on today, I really don't have time to go back to school. I don't really have the energy for it anyways.
Gotta go home, clean the kitchen, pick up after the sodding animals, pick up the mess my sister had caused a week ago that I just now noticed this morning (the little ungrateful brat...), I gotta pick up my room, bla bla bla, etc, etc,

I NEED A BREAK hfhjkhgdkshghshfewighhdfsjkdsildshhgi9t4jfewgjsvklsdgjkbk.... pfffft....

Um... anyways, in class we're putting together audio stories. I have to say, It's really fun. I used to do something like that all the time when I was a bit younger (I.e. the not so distant past, ahahahaha)

I have to learn more about the mic.s though, I'm completely lost. I'm just puzzled, ahahaha... no one's going to get that joke, orz. Whatever.

Well, I'm off to do.... something. Buh-bye.

Coffee & TV~

Gah! I haven't posted  anything in a while!!! *panic emoticon* Aurgh, I'm still trying to juggle everything. I had to give up Guitar lessons & I haven't played any video games in a while. I'm too tired to, really. Well, at least I have my health. Pffffffffttt....

We worked on a sound project today, I wish I could've stayed there all day. I like arranging different sounds to make a story :3 I think it's cool.

I don't really have anything to say, really.
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nope.
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I'm gonna make hot chocolate & watch the Colbert Report.

Well... goodbye.

I Got Hit By A Bus Today.

I'm still alive, in case you're worried.
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Probably not worried.

Today was just one of those day were I should've stayed in bed. I even told my mother that I before I went to school, & she agreed.
I woke up late, so I had no time to even try to look nice and/or presentable, I couldn't find a decent shirt, I ended up wearing a sports thing-top that was very low cut. That's not indecent at all. Pfttt. It's pouring outside. I arrive at school, right behind my bus, & the second I get out of the car it starts to leave. So naturally I try to run after it, I slapped the side of the bus & yelled while my mother honked the horn. Then as it turns in the bus circle the end of the bus is about to hit me, it bumped me a little, so without thinkin' really, I run as fast as I could, trip, & landed in the mud. ...In front of people, who by the way did not hesitate to laugh & shout it to the world. I was like flippin' Superman... So by then the bus is almost out of sight when I start to curse & use Italian hand gestures that are the equivalent to flipping someone off, aimed towards the bus, & run inside the school so they can call the bus back.

The moral of this story is that If a bus is leaving, then @#$%ing let go.

Mom tried to convince me to just go back home, but damn my pride, it wouldn't let me.
I just want people to be proud of me, & I feel as if I don't get everyday of my video production class in or I don't do everything I possible can about it, I feel as if I'm letting people down. Including myself too I guess.
So the bus-lady-driver comes back with the most pissed off face she can give me & says, "The new departure time is... yadda yadda yadda." I just say, "Well, that would've been useful info ten minutes ago." & I go sit down. Seriously, no one could've sent a memo? Told us a day before?
A flippin' post-it-note? SOMETHING?!!? & how did she not see me?! I hit the bus with my flippen' body!
asdafhgrefgfdhfgjigriougrigrjiufhufdiouso9diffff!!! Random smacking on the keyboard etc.... pffffffffffffffffft...

So I Finnally arrive at the class, but I freakin' forgot about that we had a sub today, so almost everything was locked out, & barely got anything done, & I still have a bunch of stuff to do, & I had nothing but $20 bills in my wallet so unless I wanted 80 quarters I didn't have lunch, & I was still wet, cold, & muddy, & my lower back was hurting so much the past few days that I literally could not stand it so stabbed my hand with the end of a pen (the flat side mind you) & I already got all my work done in my other classes so I had nothing to do or think about in class, so I couldn't distract myself from my back pain, so eventually I couldn't take it anymore & I left.

It's all quite comical, really. I just can't enjoy it right now. Maybe later, when you know, something to tell a friend later or something. I dunno. It's 11 at night. I'm going to bed even though there's a show on that I want to watch  'cause I don't want to fall in mud again.

I can't freakin' wait for winter. Pffftttt......... At least if I fall down & hurt myself there's ice everywhere. The glass is half full.

Oh, What to post, what to post, what to post~...
I have no idea.

I'm not particularly in a great mood. It's rainy, low pressure makes my joints hurt. I can't wait for winter though. I love the cold & the snow. The only thing I really dislike about winter is how cold my room is. It's not heated or insulated or whatever, so it's easily the coldest room in the house. It's really painful to get up in the morning 'cause I leave a warm bed & instantly meet 40 degree weather *pouts* I need a big coat...

Anywho, we're learning to change the size of images in class. Which was a bit more important than I used to think it was. Now I kinda realize the resolution & all that....
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I got nothin'. Nothing to really talk about that I feel close enough to share over the Internet. So... yeah.
See you later.